Release and Rebirth

Yes it's been a while I KNOW! I'm not going to even explain why when what let's just get into it.

I know I like to keep my entries lighthearted, laid-back and filled with nerdy goodness, today I'm going to change lanes.  I just have to put this out there and make peace with Jason.

It's been said "If you love someone, you should be able to let them go..." you know the rest.  Sure they tell you all that, but what they don't tell you afterwards is how to deal with yourself.  Emo is an understatement.  All those songs you hear about heartbreak and the like.  Their words became mine,  somedays felt more like I was just existing rather than living.

My friends, that shit is dead.  Not love, not going for yours, but the sinking feelings of inadequacy.  I'm burying it right now, there will be no repass afterwards so you are going to have to buy your own chicken (sorry.)

This year I celebrated my 30th birthday.  My goal was to truly take the reins on my life.  Suggestions are just suggestions and not a blueprint to your dreamlife for Me.  I will eat/drink/worship/pray/fuck/smoke/talk however I feel like.  I'll stop when I feel like it, or when I'm gone.

This entry is a peptalk more than anything.  When that negative bullshit tries to creep in, I'll hit it with this.  I'm a boss and that's the end of it.