Did I Mention My YouTube Channel?

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It's quite bare at the moment, but not for long.  I hope to have videos up before Christmas.  Keep those fingers crossed.

While the main focus will be on gaming & various other nerdshit, I will talk about all the other crap I'm passionate about also.

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Dreams While I Hope My Direct Deposit Clears

Lost in the sauce.  The Garrett's Chicago mix has too much cheese in it.  Just another face among many shuttling back & forth on an iron horse.  Strolling amongst higher ups, to kiss the ass of the higher ups.  Aspirations whittled down to post it notes.  Loved ones seem to taunt you, frozen forever in a flash of happiness.   Few items on your desk actually belong to you.  Not even the hand sanitizer you wished could clean your slate.  Because you know it's chock full of baggage, self depreciation & a deep seeded hatred for what you do "for a living."

Living? HA! #ednakrabappel

It's All dread everything.  You put on the happy employee mask (of course it's a bear, not just any bear, one that grins.)  It gets you through the days, the months, the years you sit at a desk compiling eye strain & despondency.

Day dreaming stunts work productivity.  Save that for cigarette breaks.  Smoke billowing out of your mouth & nose, kind of like your will to do something better.  To take a risk, to wonder why exceptional effort doesn't get you exceptional pay.  You know the usual.

I'm happy to be working, I'm not happy to be working on something that will not have any type of long lasting impressions on people.  The only outlook I have has a Microsoft logo attached to it, and it's quite grey, dead Optimus Prime grey.

Out of sight, going out of my mind.

Bob Mullins Solution to the Immigration Boom

GOP Nominee Proposes Landmines For Mexico Border - CBS News.

"We could put land mines along the border. I know it sounds crazy. We could put up signs in 23 different languages if necessary," Mullins says in the radio interview, where he also expressed concern that terrorists could carry a nuclear weapon across the Mexican border.

That's a wonderful idea Tom Mullins!  Nothing says, "We don't want you illegals here" like the splattered remains of potential border jumpers.  Are you fucking insane?  Let's turn our border into the inner German border for the sake of "national security."  Tommy boy we all know that's bullshit through and through.  Say what you mean and mean what you say, but you're a politician so your word means nothing, as you proved when asked about your comments.

"I am not suggesting we do that," he told The Associated Press.

Wait, so are you just a ventriloquist dummy with a hand up your ass?  Everyone wants to bask in great ideas, yet no one rarely takes the weight for a completely terrible one.

By no means am I saying that security isn't important.  This suggestion borders on warlord mentality.  You test us, you are testing death.  Feel lucky?

North Korea would like to subscribe to your newsletter Bob Mullins.

TITM Comments On Some Dumb Shit A Rapper Said

*Broad generalization, broad generalization, broad generalization.*

Do Slim Thug's comments read like that to anyone else?

Cover Your Heart Indy!

In Mr. Jones' case it was life saving advice.  It could have ruined mine.

Opportunity Knocks.

Or was that a gunshot or three? Is the body even cold yet?

Let me back track just a bit. Last night, Thomas Wortham IV an off-duty police officer and veteran, was killed in an attempted robbery. Thomas' father, who is a retired officer was able to return fire. Killing one robber and critically injuring the other.

Chicago Breaking News: Off-duty Chicago police officer killed in robbery attempt

Just another senseless loss of black life in the streets of Chi-city. But that's not what this entry is about. Enterthe Good Reverend Isaac Hayes. He's running for Congress under the GOP banner. Now that's fine and dandy, I'm totally against name calling exclusively for political affiliation (calling someone a libtard -conservatard or whatever variations was never funny cut it out!) I will however call you an idiot for saying something like this:

(via Chicago Current)

“One lesson we learn from this incident is that his father was able to repel the attackers because he was armed. Sadly, most law abiding citizens are not retired Chicago Police Officers and are helpless in such cases. The current push by state and local legislators to continue to deny our constitutional right to bear arms in the wake of a U.S. Supreme Court decision will only perpetuate the victimization of citizens by urban terrorists. It is time we stop punishing the good guys and start cracking down on the bad guys who remain armed."

Black Moses are you kidding me?! If this isn't you playing the circling vulture, I don't know what is. Instead of a soapbox, you stand on the lifeless body of a black man. Pushing your political rhetoric before the body is even cold. Pathetic.

Isaac, if you haven't noticed the thugs on the street have been and will be exercising their right to bear arms. Law or no law, the streets will stay strapped. 89 murders by gunshots as of the end of April 2010. I expect that number to balloon as the temperature rises.

Oh, one last thing Ike. If you're talking about taking guns out of the hands of "domestic terrorists" please please PLEASE don't forget about groups like Hutaree, hiding their bigotry under the guise of patriotism (and Jesus.)

The best part is he concluded his statement with "prayers and condolences" only after this 2nd amendment spiel. After this I am praying that you never have to taste your foot ever again, and condolences for the eventual death of your political career.

So It All Makes Sense

Yes, yes another post about those zany teabaggers again.  Well, indirectly.

I'm still waiting to be welcomed into the new & improved post-racial America ever since we elected our first black/Nazi/socialist/Muslim/not born in America president.  If you haven't figured it out a post racial world doesn't exist.  Oh, but those folks will tell you that racism & prejudice don't hold weight in this world anymore.

You MFs must think I'm stupid....oh wait YOU DO!

source.

He directed the Multi-State Survey of Race and Politics, a broad look at race relations and politics in contemporary America. The survey reached 1,015 residents of Nevada, Michigan, Missouri, Ohio, North Carolina, Georgia and California. All were battleground states in the 2008 presidential election with the exception of California, which was included in the survey to represent the West Coast.

The survey found that 30 percent of respondents had never heard of the tea party, but among those who had, 32 percent strongly approved of it. In that group, 56 percent of Republicans strongly approved, 31 percent of independents strongly approved and 5 percent of Democrats strongly approved.

Among whites who approved, 35 percent said they believe blacks to be hardworking, 45 percent said they believe them intelligent and 41 percent said they believe them trustworthy.

Now that's pretty telling.  Almost half, half of these people think we're dumb, and even more of them think we're lazy oafs.  You know what it's cool, I'll revel in our rich history while you dedicate your life to keeping an L alive (shout out to confederate history month.)

But I get it,you think" some dumb lazy nigger can't run our....no wait my country!"  Arrogant, uppity & socialist became the new nigger.  Now all of a sudden you're upset with government.  Pardon my French, but get the entire fuck out of here!  Our economy was going the way of Atlantis, and taking the world with it.  Where were all of you, with your signs & your rallies & declaring war on government yadda yadda yadda...words words words.

Our government has needed an overhaul for years.  In God We Trust isn't on our currency because we're good Christian soldiers (because that's what the forefathers were...right?  RIGHT?) It's because that money sits as the most high lord and savior for the people that are supposed to represent us and our needs.  I can't understand how you think your revolt can start and begin with elected officials.  They have screwed you before & they will do it again.  Just the way it works.  Hypocrisy and politics make great bedfellows.

Arizona, Arizona....SMH.

You have somehow legalized racial profiling on the back of immigration.  So how will you know the difference between an illegal & a citizen?  Does an illegal smell like oppression?  If you happen to be in a parking lot of your local big box hardware store, will you be asked for your freedom papers?  It's nonsense.  You're concerned about citizen safety, but recently signed a law giving the green light to firearms in bars!  Just what the world needs, drunk yokels with guns doling out justice for Americuhhh (fuck yeah!)

Oh & Sarah Palin needs to shut the entire fuck up.



Even when you stand for something, you can fall for anything...

/Rant

Bat-Shit Crazy...America Haz It

Can I call the absence of newer entries a hiatus?  If "hiatus" means lazy I guess I could.  It's my blog, IDOWHATIWANT /Cartman.

I don't have an excuse as to why the posts have come so few and far between since January(!) Life's just like that sometimes.

Before I go on, I have one question. Teabaggers, what the fuck is wrong with you folks?  Before the election if you would've asked me if I was down, I'd say hell yea son.  You pwn a noob then it's like:

Oh that's not the teabagging you speak of?  Oh, so being a teabagger now means being racially inflammatory, watching Fox News & calling our president a Nazi (among other things) and listening to this woman?

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In addition, with the health care reform your duties may include trolling the HuffPo website & sending threatening emails to Congressmen/women & egging on your followers to put a bullet in Obama's head if they get the chance.  All for the sake of taking America back from that Black, Nazi, Communist, Anti-Christ, born in Kenya, Manifesting my white guilt sonvabitch Obama.  Oh Nancy Pelosi who will transform to Zuul the second she gets the chance (I wish I had Photoshop skillz. *shrug*)

Taking back America huh? If you don't see the irony in that you've been reading Texas schoolbooks...

Now the GOP wants to distance itself from this movement.  Like a new puppy it's wonderful, it's cute, until all it does is shit on your carpet in front of company.  You get frustrated, but it was your responsibility to train it.  Now it runs rampant & you're surprised?  (Yes I did compare teabaggers to carpet shitting puppies...it's been a while I'm sorry.)

And what is this post-racial America I keep hearing about?  I tried to book a trip on Expedia, but they don't have an airport.

*Back in the saddle, look at my boots*

Hello (30 in 30 #5)

I can’t remember the last time my smile seemed so bashful.

You walked into the room and nothing else exists anymore.  Just me, you and an intense desire.  It hovers hums in deep lustful tones.

Tones and tongues unknown, but when the world starts back in motion translates to “I need to have her”

Her being Black Aphrodite standing only a few feet away.  A Mocha masterpiece.  sitting in the Lourve looked upon in wonder.  I’m eager to jump the velvet rope and snatch her up for myself.

“I have to have her”

Her with thighs standing strong and dark.  On feet balanced flawlessly in stiletto heels.  ‘Come fuck me shoes’ is what I’ve heard them called.  I hope I have on my come fuck me shirt and slacks tonight.

Still looking from the corners of my eye.  Not even taking a single step.  Praying for an opportunity, like men pray for power.  In this instance I’m my own sovereign deity.

You have to do this…

Looking in her eyes is direct sunlight, I must look away, but only for a moment.

‘Opportunity knocks, answer the door motherfucker.’

‘But she’s so beautiful, and I’m so, so…..ME.’

You’re You, which is why she’s been looking at you all night.  Just waiting for you to come close.  Anticipating the first touch you’ll share hoping it won’t be the last.  Pondering if you’ll notice how sexy she looks tonight.

She got this way, hoping someone like you would be here.

My smile is no longer bashful.  My feet are free to take that first step.

How can I tell her how long I’ve been watching?  That I’ve been waiting for this moment for what seems an eternity?

You don’t…….just say Hello.

Love Songs

Some would say that as of today the love song is dead.

Siren songs,  filled with empty promises.  Lusty boasts with catchy dances attached, bringing nothing to the table, but still want breakfast in the morning afterwards.

Yes, Jason the love song is dead.

I disagree.  As long as my heart beats a song will dwell there.

Penning a ditty in every genre.  Not for acclaim, not for fortune.

I do it for the drum & bass when we're face to face.  A sweet symphony of embraces.  6.1 Dolby's got nothing on us.

But they say the love song died...passed in it's sleep.

Bullshit.

It's alive damn it. In me...in you...in us.

Instruments finely tuned.

#3

Moans over modems

Ones & zeroes become voyeurs to

a mind sexcapade.

Ex

I told myself I wouldn't waste a memory on you, not even in passing.

And even if I did I would pray it was run down by a train of thought.

I existed in a mythical sense, Aesop wrote the script complete with a moral.

I learn my lesson, got burned by the  levels of hell that I went through.

Maybe I sound bitter, shoo the greys away with dark liquors but that would only cloud my vision and the over hangs honestly rain on your boy's parade.

Found love in loathing, loved you when I was lonesome but swore there was nothing without you in the frame.

But when the filmed develops, they will be no reflection of us.  Just scars and bite marks from where the Succubus struck.

Sunlight (30in30 #1)

Our love ignited.

The sun a struck match compared

To us intertwined.