Love is On My Mind

No this isn't going to be an entry about how I've been knocked on my ass by some new P.Y.T. that I met out and about. Truth be told, love is always something I ponder on once and again regularly. I just feel like blogging about it today, well because I can that's why.

I don't want to fall in love ever again. Now before you get the torches and pitchforks out let me explain. Falling in love sounds like something you might have to escape from eventually, or that it's unexpected and took you by surprise. Like you don't even have a choice as to who you become smitten with. Having been married once before, I refuse to let a person have that much power over me. Instead of love being used to build a stronger foundation, it was used to manipulate and tear me down. The damage was done, but the renovations that were necessary are awesome (you'll see.)

I always did my best to not walk around bitter. Maybe I wasn't, or I was just in denial. Fuck it I was bitter. I was lied to, stolen from and plain out used. It wears on you and I felt like I couldn't trust anyone anymore. Sure I was broken, but I didn't want to be all emo about it.



I'm ready to end this chapter and start fresh. New beginnings, new ideas from a new stronger mind and spirit. I've taken the event of the past years and learned from them instead of letting them leave me sullen and hopeless.

29 is still pretty damn young, I'm going to enjoy myself and let the ball bounce where it may. Who knows maybe you'll get lucky....I'm a catch dammit.

Maybe the next entry will be about videogames or some shit....I don't know.